No title. Is that fucking okay?

Alright, so when did everyone in the world get together and decide that not being nice to M is okay? It's alright to step all over her. It's perfectly acceptable to insult her and not apologize. Oh, ruin her self esteem. She's too egotistical anyways.

You know what? No. I'm not. It's a front, in case no one saw. Yes, I like myself, yes, I don't think I'm completely worthless, but that doesn't mean I don't have insecurities. I hate my thighs. I hate the way I garble out keys when I sing. I hate that I'm no good at Spanish. I hate how I have hair on my fucking fingers. I hate my cheeks. I hate my personality. I hate my inability to show that I'm hurt unless in private (or when I'm experiencing a brief sentimental moment with my absolute closest friends). I hate, hate, hate most things about myself. But of course, hardly anyone knows that. It's my own damn fault, too. I never tell people I'm upset, and when I do, hardly anyone ever takes me seriously.

"Oh, it's only M. She'll get over it."

Yeah, I laugh when you insult me. But do I think it's funny? No. I don't want to laugh, but that's just my personality. I'm genetically engineered to constantly keep a smile on my face. I can't confront people. I hate confrontations. My last confrontation was with a guy in my math class who pissed me off. I told him I wanted to screw his head off, cut him to bits with a saw, then set his remains on fire. He laughed. I mean, when someone wants to do another that much violence, you'd think there's something seriously wrong with the relationship.

And then there're the people out there who tell me I'm stupid. "M, you're so dumb." "Omg, just slap yourself now and save me the trouble." "How does anyone not know that? You're so retarded." "God, you're so /stupid/."

Fuck you. Fuck all of you. All I want is for people to like me. I want people to see that just because I make stupid comments sometimes, it doesn't mean I'm of a lesser intelligence. It doesn't mean I don't have feelings. If you prick me do I not bleed? You know what? Fuck Shakespeare. Fuck all of you.