Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned.

It's the end of the schoolyear, and I've been hiding a lot of secrets. I think it's time for...

Confession

1. I don't think Spanish Guy is that bad looking, though sometimes I look at him and I think, "What compelled me?"
2. Bastards don't turn me on like I say they do.
3. I get intimidated by people more liked/more popular than I.
4. I like the way I walk (so stop bothering me about it).
5. I've come to terms with the fact that I like attention. I'm an attention whore. I see that now.
6. I hit on a disgusting guy once in front of a liquor store so I could get a cigarette.
7. I gifted myself with an extra $1,000 worth of stuff this year.
8. I fantasized about him instead of listening to his lectures.
9. I stole a chocolate bar from See's. The lady behind the counter was super nice, but I still didn't feel guilty.
10. I wanted to have sex with three of my friends at different points of time this year.
11. I'm still looking for that guy I saw in my dream two years ago. He's the real reason I like blond guys. My eyes are drawn to wispy gold tones when I enter a room because I still hope one of those fair haired people is him.
12. I kissed four people this year, bringing the number of people I've kissed to an even ten.
13. I'm still mad at her for copying me.
14. I made a neopets account recently. But I don't go on it, so shut up.
15. I have a myspace, I just don't use it.
16. I asked four people to have sex with me. I was serious for three of them. (Though I can't say I was exactly myself when I asked them.)
17. I've stopped liking Tiffany's.
18. I don't think much of her taste in movies.
19. I like my stepdad. Most times, I think he's right, but I side with my mom in arguments anyway.
20. I don't have anything to say to my dad.
21. I went insane a total of two times this year. The first time I screamed and screamed until my throat became hoarse and tore at my skin until I started bleeding. I second time I picked up a pair of scissors, blacked out, then came to a few seconds later with part of my hair cut off.
22. The three lines of discoloration on my wrist are actually from the time I got bored at night and cut myself. No, I'm not emo. I just like the sight of my blood and I thought it'd be funny to put it on my wrist.
23. At times I still think I can fly. I'll try to by jumping a little bit because I get confused with the reality.
24. I think roses are cliche, but I adore them.
25. I've never stolen a book, though I came close once.
26. I laugh when I don't know what to say.
27. I think my mom is a bit pathetic, but I still can't measure up to her.
28. I can no longer sleep at night because I keep writing in my head.
29. If some people died, I wouldn't care at all.
30. I pushed him away at school because I was embarrassed to be seen with him.
31. Talking on the phone with you cheers me up. :)
32. I'm starting to think maybe I've confessed too much. And that I have too much to confess.
33. I don't mind it at all when you guys make fun of my cheeks, but sometimes I do wish they were smaller.
34. I no longer love myself.
35. No, scratch that.

I'm too special to not love. =)