This is what I'm doing instead of hw...

So, I was looking at my past diary and I thought I'd share a few entries with you guys.

There's no other way to say it. JH was...a disappointment. In a way, I'm happy he disappointed me. That way, I don't have to obsess over him any more.

:)

M
(some time between 2000 and 2004.)


Hi James (J was the name of my diary),
I don't feel like writing anything. We are taking the Sat 9 test, well ofcoarse I finished already. I don't feel like doing anything actraully. I just want to go home and then watch Tv and eat then repeat that (obviously, this was when we had cable).
J <3 M
or
M<3 J
The person James, not you.
(2001-ish)

Sunday
1. Wake up and don't watch TV!
2. Take a shower/spa (Awww, I remember that was the period I would take all of Saturday, or Sunday in this case, doing masks and spa things and stuff)
3. Make bed
4. Turn on TV & do coloring homework
5. Before 4 eat
6. Study
7. do EC is u want to
5 (yeah, don't know how that figures...). go for a swim

1-17-03
U know what James? I don't like anyone at PV. The closest boy friend at school is J (Haha...right. Just shows how erroneous and misguided I was)...and I can't like him again knowing that he's a player (Playa!!! Yo, that's right, dawg). Maybe K is right; I can't push these things.
But that do not stop me from doing what I can (I get one in hole. I speak good English. Who writ the bible?)! I will choose different hairstyles...choose different outfits (really, the only thing I remember wearing back then were stupid T's and jeans)...and not be so tense around boys (well, I've achieved that alright)...look at people's eyes when I speak...be nice to everyone...and be smart!
*Big Smiley Drawn Here*